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Ok [10 Apr 2005|02:44am]
[ mood | giddy ]

So I know it's been a minute.. I'm not to up on this journal thing.. I hardly even get online anymore.. I'm alive, been in a very creative mood and DDR beastmode mood lately. Tekken4/5... aghh I'm there. I've been chilling alot with my friends coming up with new ideas to write about.. Did I mention I'm writing a book? Yeah I'm writing one.. it's crazy.. But everything is sort of working out now.. I've done like a total SOUL/SPIRIT reform and it's like I can see the world so much better and sunnier now. Alot of people I know need a reform, but they are scared. But it truly helps alot. Should I get into it? Ok.
So I've sort of started to figure out a lot of things about the world and how we are all being thrown into this mental block. See nobody really understands why things happen anymore.. they sort of just accept and adapt. Do you ever find yourselves asking why you have to do certain things to live? Never find yourself wishing you could be happy and worry free? Those are things that we rarely ask ourselves because we are either religious, have family expectations, and other things thrown on us. We seem to believe that whatever we are told/taught is the correct way. And you don't really realize what habits you pick up until you're older. Many people might not even know what they want in life because they pushed into a mindset by their parents.
.... I'm kinda getting off track.. I'll explain more if anybody is interested just e-mail me.
Anyhow my new interests in the world and life have helped my creative side take bloom... Making beats, writing poetry, creating plot lines. I recently purchased a katana and plan on starting Kendo Classes in June.. YEAH I'M GANGSTER! Gotten really into martial arts lately... Just using your mind with your body.. That's DDR's fault... my coordination has improved at a sickly rate. Anyway new business ideas.. so many things..
The Life Goal of Quiana = Asian Movie Producer/Director/Screenwriter... preferably Japan since I've already started to make friends there.
Sounds like a lot right? That's not even the beginning.. LOL my best friend says I'm only one person.. But one person can do alot of things if they put their mind, heart, soul and body into it. Yeah you guys need to IM me sometime.. I need some friends to talk to lol
Did I also mention I've found a liking in S+M? ;-) That's Gangster!

Anyhow Tata for now! More tomorrow


(Look Into My Eyez)

Well I've finally decided to post again [16 Mar 2005|06:48pm]
[ mood | energetic ]

Yeah it took me forever, but I've finally decided to post and use this journal as a positive source. Quickly about me.. I got a new job, I love writing/making music/manga with my best friend, and we've recently taken DDR to a next step in our lives. I'm seeing people I haven't seen in years and meeting people that are positive people. I've also taken it to business levels, but I can't tell about that.. yet :-D... I'm starting to get more involved with my playing for various reasons.. Mostly because I am good at something that will help me lose weight, not to mention my skills are good for someone of my stature. (I just AA'ed dream a dream with 9 greats!! wtf is that?!?)
But yeah I'm gonna post my best stats for the day cus this is sooo cool!
Dream A Dream - AA 242p 9g
Silent Hill 3rd X-mas - AA 223p 8g 1b
And get thisss.. both were on x1 regular!... MY HARD PAD ROCKS!

Ooohhh - I'll post more after I play


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WOWWW [02 Feb 2005|11:50am]
[ mood | bouncy ]

How the hell long has it been sinse I last updated this crap?!?! TOOO LONG!!! Well alot has happened sinse i last posted.. The main reason i stopped posting in the first place was that I got a job at NBC so i just never thought about posting in here.. I know you people are probably like wtf?!? Yeah but I'm on my way to looking for a new job.. being a cashier is not all that and I need way more money. So what has been up with me?? NOTHING at all.. my life is a joke however.. I have been very happy and uppity because I have finally figured out what I want to do with my life... Another reason that I am posting on here is because of that. I wanted to know if any of you people were truly devoted to music like LOVE music, because I am in the works of planning a recording studio and I need about 2 truly devoted people that have good heads to work with me on this.. because I have a feeling that we can get to the top if we work at it.. If you wanna talk to me more about it.. just IM me on aol at Divine Thoughtz...

Anyhow.. besides that I am just in the process of looking for a better job so that I can get myself living comfortably.. Its hard living on your own on bullshit every week.. but I like working.. it gives me something to do.. So yeah I will update this later when I am at my own house.


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How great is my life?` [19 Nov 2004|01:02pm]
[ mood | giggly ]

Not to great.. so many things have been happening this week that I am afraid is gonna be the cause of problems in the future.. Unless i get a job in the next 2 weeks... Ahh family stuff.. my cousin moved in with my grandma temporarily(yeah right) and all hell broke loose cus it was so bad in there... But uhmm she acts like we all have time to be at the house everyday.. if we did.. we would.. but she can't just come at me cus everybody else in the family is responsible too.. Unfornately I found out yesterday after breaking down to my aunt on the phone that our family has always been like that. My aunt wanted to know why i just up and left... so i told her.. it was crazy.. I practically almost cursed.. but i can catch myself.. Well lol I dunno.. I gotta get my life on track or like i said before.. hell is going to break loose. Ohk maybe not.. but if I come clean about alot of stuff.. maybe my aunt will to and we will figure out how to do this.. together as a family.. for the first time in years. I believe the last time we actually sat down as a family was my grandfathers funeral 4 years ago.. god it seems like so much longer than that.. but alot has happened sinse then. SO yeah.. that is the family aspect of my life..

SO last night I'm locked outta my apartment for 4 hours... godd lol.. It sucks to live alone.. Mandella came and after like an hour of picking at the door, he just managed to climb in the window.. It was sick...I was about to break my door down.. but then i decided to walk to and from parkchester to see if i could get tee tee's help.. to no avail, i walked back to my house and saw Mandella walking out my building.. so i ran like 2 blocks (hows that for excersize) and caught up with him.. and we just kinda bugged out tryin to get into my house. BUt yeah.. obviously i'm in. I guess in a way things are getting better.. but in away they are getting worse.. I just need a job.. ohhh how that would solve my problems for now... Sorry buds.. I don't think christmas is coming this year. Unless I can find a way to get mad money lol.. Guess I gotta start workin this aloe.

On a happier note.. I'm not feeling as lonely or sad as i used to.. I think i'm finally starting to understand alot of stuff..WOO.. aghhhh JOB!!!!!! work... anything!!! DOes anybody know where I can get some temp work or sumthin.. I'm about to study the classifieds.

Back to oogling at the sexy electricians in my house - Q

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So wow!! [14 Nov 2004|04:45am]
[ mood | calm ]

So here is a funny story... I gotta tell all because this is the first time this has ever happened to me... So after a long night of chillin and what not.. me, my best friend latiesha and my friend mandella were sound asleep in my house, teetee in my living room and me and della in the bedroom. Around 6 in the morning, I wake up because there is this horrible stomping going on up above my head... After about 2 minutes.. I was just about ready to go up there and complain when somebody starts banging on my door like MASSIVE! After a minute, tee runs into my room talkin about "The cops are at the door!" So i'm like wtf?! Cops what the hell happened in my bad ass neighborhood now.. So i jump outta bed and with tee close behind we run to open the door.. Low and behold FOUR firemen! The guy banging on the door goes " There is a fire in your wall" and me still being half asleep is confused out my ass. Well anyways.. I end up runnin back into my house (tee gets stuck in the hall way) and moving the things in the corner where the fire was. Mind you I didnt smell any smoke till I stepped into that corner. I push all my stuff into the kitchen and turn around just in time to see the fireman literally THROW a fire poker into the ceiling and rip it out. And i'm standing in the kitchen in like awe. Well anyway, after about 15 minutes, they manage to put the fire out completely.. while also ripping half my wall and ceiling out. There was debris everywhere and water and wooo. Turns out, there had been a short in a wire between the second floor (my floor) and the third floor. I think the fire may have started a while before that but just sat there smoldering the wood. Yeah.. what a way to start my weekend.. I had to spend the whole day almost cleaning. It was crazy cus everybody on my apartment line all the way to the top, except for the people under me, had their ceilings and floors ripped out because they thought the fire started at the top floor because the smoke rose all the way up. If I look into the hole, I can see 4 apartments.. its crazy.. here are pictures of what I call the "warzone"!
Update Later - Q
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(Look Into My Eyez)

Wow [06 Nov 2004|03:28am]
[ mood | relaxed ]

Ok LJ so its been a minute sinse i last updated... My word.. my cable went out.. for not paying the bill.. But it came back cus i paid it and i hope i can stay current with all my bills.. Really need to get that job.. There is probably a lot to tell u, but i've got the mind block... as usual. So i am sittin here in my apartment.. chillin.. talkin to people.. having a grand ol time.. I went to chinatown today to buy some seafood.. lol what kind of random ass excursion is that.. i dunno.. I really do be bored in my house. But at any rate.. it was goodddd after it took my 30 mins to clean and cook it. It was shrimp btw. Really nuttin happened this week.. I am such a lonely ass person.. hopefully that will soon change. I'm gonna start workin out again like full blast.. I managed to lose 12 lbs and keep it off, but i have been lazy so i gotta lose like 20 more before christmas.. for a lot of reasons. And tone up.. like seriously. By next year Cupid Day, i need to be pushin a size 10 and really be lookin good at that.. I let myself really go when I was with Ron.. Oh well no need to dwell on the past.. just need to think about the future and that all starts today... Well yeah not much to talk about.. not much goes on in life.. So i'll update tomorrow night.. i am sure something exciting would have happened by then.

- Later all - Q

(Look Into My Eyez)

for me [02 Nov 2004|02:37pm]
[ mood | excited ]

This is to remind myself, but anybody who wants to go can :-D!
I'm almost a fan of DJ Delerium yayzz

November 24th (Wednesday - No School or Work Next Day) - TURKEY F*CKER by Insane Asylum & 4th Dimension
Main Floor:
Dj Delirium, Johnny Fame, John Bass, Tommy Ryde, Galvatron, C-Tag, Veryfine, Johnny Hardkore
The Retro Lounge featuring NYC's finest Old School DJ's spinning' a night of, NEVER TO BE FORGOTTEN, OLD SKOOL!
Atomic Babies 100% LIVE PA! , Knowledge,The Dever, Klip Rock, Rob Devz,Tommy Tunes, OB-1
The Jungle Room:
Jimmy Fingaz, Krazy Glue, Link,Yentalbeats,Josef Fazor, Seec, Kae Sharp
LOCATION: @ Club Demerera (Planet 28) 215 West 28th street BTWN 7th & 8th ave NYC - 3 FLOORS of INCREDIBLE SOUND, 30 DJ'S (with an EXCLUSIVE OLD SKOOL Room) SPINNING MORE THEN 7 DIFFERENT TYPES OF MUSIC!!!!
INFO: $10 event before 12am $15 After - 9pm-5am Info: 718-707-1264 Or lareina20@aol.com ***There will be a 10 person DJ scratching competition, top 3 will be awarded prizes but only 1 will claim the title KING of the JUNGLE! This will also be NYC's 1st EVER FEATHER DROP!!!**

(2 fell in loves |Look Into My Eyez)

Oh boy.. [28 Oct 2004|07:03am]
[ mood | nostalgic ]

I've realized that no matter how much I try... how many people I'm interested in.. the only person I think about every night before I fall asleep is Ron. Everytime I hear this song.. I feel like breaking down cus it tells exactly how I feel. Nobody could make me feel how he did/does.. Now I'm really feeling it. Oh well.

I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

(Look Into My Eyez)

John Kerry Asked Bill Clinton [25 Oct 2004|11:45pm]
[ mood | jubilant ]

"Mr. President, what is one thing that you and George W. Bush have in common?"

He stood there and thought. He simply answered..

"Come next Tuesday, we will both be former presidents"

That was classic classic classic!!! I was rollin the laundromat when I saw that on tv. I LOVE politics!!!!


(Look Into My Eyez)

Soo Cool!! [24 Oct 2004|08:16am]
[ mood | relaxed ]

This has gotta be like the best weekend I've had in a long time.. I guess i can give a full update sinse i have to be awake for the next couple of minutes. Its not really over yet but so far I've had so much fun its crazy.. It's mainly friday that had me buggin.. me and my crew saw "The Grudge" and let me tell you.. If none of you guys have seen it, I suggest you go see it... That is almost true horror right there. Let me just give a night by night recap.

Well yeah so Alia, our new friend JoJo and Della spent the night at my house. It was cool for the fact that me and della stayed up all night talking. We talk about the most random stuff but it feels great to engage in conversation with someone. I stayed up until he left for school on Friday morning and then knocked out..

So yeah we all get ready to get the hell outta here and make it to the movies by 8:00 to catch the 9:30 showing of the grudge. Now let me tell you sumthin.. my whole family (me, ia, shoechep, della, amba, nanana, and tiesha) have already seen the grudge like 50 times.. not the american, but the japanese original. So we were really anticipating the remake. I must say i was really surprised when this movie did for me just like the original. First of all.. never fill up a theater with teenagers and young adults from the bronx and show that movie. By the first 30 minutes, people were leaving the theater. Most of you may think this is some ring like movie.. Its not.. spend the 7 dollars to see it! Its WELL worth it.
+ points of the night-
Being the only people in the theater to laugh when a character said "Mushi Mushi"
Having an argument about comparing the two movies
Buggin the hell out
So yeah.. we came back to my house.. woooo party!! Mad political talking!! loved it!! and fun fun in the bathroom...

consisted of nothing.. We were home the whole dayyy but it was great.. just chillin in the house.. We were suppose to goto a party, but unfortunately, people didn't keep in contact.. so we all stayed home and drank massively. We actually had fun.. as usual!
+ points of the night-
slow dancing in the laundromat (who doesn't love that??)

yeah most of you have probably realized that I talk mostly about my nights cus i sleep all day.. Boy do I need work...I need a job like asap.

Well I gotta go potty so update later!

(Look Into My Eyez)

Woww [20 Oct 2004|01:48am]
[ mood | cold ]

Its way to cold in my apartment to even think so I'll update in the morning when the heat is coming up.

on another note.. I am so lonely in this apartment ... its boring.. but thats life.. somebody, ANYBODY needs to come and join me.. and keep me frickin warm!


(Look Into My Eyez)

Mushi Mushi!!! [13 Oct 2004|01:02am]
[ mood | silly ]

Wowww its been a minute sinse i have posted.. well not that long but this weekend was just to full of events that I had no time to really keep up. I am now here in Alia's living room chillin out and watchin club comic view.. Its funny sumtimes but for the most part i like to just get some laughs to not feel bored. Oh gosh.. so much has happened and I really can't post it in here cus its really private.. but I'm just confused.. well not really confused.. just like "blah" about certain things in my life... I think i've been lead on.. and wow.. how could i have let that happen to me.. I think i fall in lust so quick.. but this person I actually well really like.. but I guess not everything will go your way. I'll just chill out. that is all i can do.. This really isn't the full update.. but I think I will do one tomorrow when I am more coherant lol.. I'm over here dying... lol


(Look Into My Eyez)

Float onnnnn!!! [06 Oct 2004|09:31pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Takin it back with that song.. Uhm so yeah.. i didn't update yesterday.. what happened?? uhmm I dont even remember... it must not have been important. Yet anaother weekend approaches and I have not got anything accomplished with my car or my grandmothers home equity loan... I did however apply to 3 jobs today... :-D.. I think they might actually call back being that Old Navy needs to hire 30 people. I hope that they pay me close to what I want because i need to make at least 7.50 to be able to survive the rest of this year. It was cool tho.. That means that i have a week to sell my car and do a whole bunch of various other things... My cat is pregnant again.. anybody want a kitten and mother cat?? Let me know!! Anyhow.. not to much to talk about.. just been chilllin.. urrr.. I hope that sumthin exciting happens this weekend for me.. because my life gets more and more boring every weekend. Nothing bad.. something very good for a change... awww hell who knows.. anyways!! nite all!

- Q

(Look Into My Eyez)

the update [05 Oct 2004|02:03am]
[ mood | awake ]

I dont remember if I updated yesterday...besides that poem.. nuttin really happened.. just like today.. really just been chillin out with alia alot and tryin to get myself back on track. Today I got my hair done but the damn woman did it wrong and it looks the same as usual... idiots... Now i gotta spend another 40 dollars to get it done the correct way. Oh well.. Other than that.. Uhhh.. Chinese buffet.. walkin around in CO-op... back to alia's house... Me and euseff had this long talk.. I think that some stuff makes some sense now.. I am kinda just sittin here.. i was talkin to euseff's friend but now.. I think he is sleeping... and I am just bored because I am such a night person... I think that.. well I dunno.. life is pretty much a big run-around right now.. I am tryin so hard to stay sane but people are driving me crazy in more ways than one. To much to get into.. but i really gotta start gettin stuff with my grandma together.. i've actually been waking up early and taking initiative.. Its difficult.. but i really have to get back on track. I know i've said it a million times but if i don't start doing sumthin now.. shit is really gonna hit the fan and I can really see it coming. Its funny how I can see so much shit and I just do much about it.. Well today I am gonna go actually clean my grandma's house. Well the basement anyway. ::sigh:: i want to go on a date so bad.. not even that.. I just haven't had any kind of "romance" in so long... I just need a slow dance.. who is the last person I danced with.. CHAD?!? at my cotillion??? oh lord... why does it seem that if wasn't such a bastard for tryin to date me and that fat bitch, that he woulda been so great for me. Everything happens for a reason :-/ Sometimes i just wanna put on a slow song.. and just hold someone.. because when everything else fails.. people just need to be held...Maybe I should start writing poems again for the fact that it gets alot of shit off my mind. I need someone to just be romantic with.. I'm not in search for the "ULTRA" relationship.. just someone to make me feel good about myself.. and there is one person that does that.. but he is soo creepy.. lol.. maybe I mean you never know.. I am to busy to look for someone else.. and as i said before... the person I want to talk to the most.. well I just dont know how to.. and for some reason.. I just think we'd clash cus his views are kinda... uhh.. just different from mine.. but hey "ying/yang" I dunno maybe i'll take my chances at the tournament.. (shit that sort of gave it away..)

In other news.. umm speakin of the tournament.. the convention is what next saturday.. I am housing some people from mass. for that weekend.. I gotta clean.. yay... Well before this weekend anyways because I'ma have a full house this weekend.. dont ask why.. Just gonna be fun I hope. Well yeah.. i'm about to go write a little and think as usual.. Update later as usual!


(Look Into My Eyez)

Stolen From Someones BP page... [03 Oct 2004|05:32pm]
[ mood | giggly ]

A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said..no. She asked him
if he would want to be with her forever..and he said no. She then asked him if
she were to leave would he cry? and once again he replied with a no. She had
heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed
her arm and said... Your not pretty, your beautiful, i dont want to be with you
forever, i NEED to be with you forever, and i wouldnt cry if you walked
away...i`d die...

that is so beautiful!


(Look Into My Eyez)

To the one I Love (Ron) [03 Oct 2004|08:42am]
[ mood | nostalgic ]

If your looking to find
A love that will stand till the end of time
Baby relax your mind my love is here
I'll do anything I swear
I'd take the pain and the hurt
You won't know it's there
Your wants would be nothing
I put that on everthing
I will pull a star out of the sky for you
Yes I would
To the edge of the earth
I'll go to see you
Yes it's true
If you go anywhere
And I'm not there
Just think on thoughts of love
And I'll appear
Before I dream
I lay and think of you every night
Honest to God
I'm telling you the truth
I wish you could see
How much your presence means to me
You would love me so much
More each day
I'll walk for you
Through the desert heat
I'll climb the mountains highest peak
I'lll swim forever in the deepest sea
Just for you this song I sing
For all the love and joy you bring
For you I'll try
To do the impossible things

(Look Into My Eyez)

ok... [03 Oct 2004|08:16am]
[ mood | bored ]

Ok i thought i could do the short update but i'm just sittin here thinkin alot.. I dunno what to do with my life cus it seems like i'm feenin for some thing so bad that is not there.. I've given up hope on like all 3 of my "potentials" because well it just doesn't seem like it would happen for the best. There is only one other person and it just doesn't seem like that would work out because I can never figure out a way to talk to him.. and well I don't think that I am his type.. i dunno.. What i really need to concentrate on is my life.. but it just seems that it is hard to be stable without any kind of feeling. I am comfy being around that certain "sumone" and it helps me to relieve the emotional tension that I feel. It seems like the people that I am interested in or vice versa, well it would just never work out. For varioussss reasons... mainly cus I can't talk to one person, the other person makes me uncomfortable and the other person well i think he is sorta in the closet dare I say? Its really confusin and I am sittin here just beating myself up emotionally. It makes me feel like bustin out into tears because i was sooo comfortable and I love Ron so much and now .. it just feels different to not have anybody emotionally. What can I do? Just wait it out.. you guys dont know how hard it is to do that.. AGHHH!!! Please let all this madness enddddd. ::sigh::

(Look Into My Eyez)

Mushi Mushi! [03 Oct 2004|07:59am]
[ mood | cold ]

Oh wow.. What a night.. at alias all night.. watchin movies.. we met Johanna.. she is pretty cool.. back to my house.. ate and now chillin.. i guess I will update later because i am just to tired to type right now... lol


(Look Into My Eyez)

Watch out for the big girl!!! [02 Oct 2004|02:46am]
[ mood | drunk ]

So yeah.. I am here in my house.. I have been her for the past 3 hours just chillin with my 2 best buds and buggin out. We have been drinking.. its so funny we were buggin out all over the place. I was strippin for them and just engaging in long convo with someone...:-D...I think most of you guys can tell already who I am talkin about.. It was fun.. but i think i was gettin a lil to open for him.. I'm buggin out... We talked about a situation that I am in.. and i think I know what to do now.. but anyways.. Not gonna make this long and drawn out cus I cannot really concentrate... I will update in the morning!

(Look Into My Eyez)

bagh! [01 Oct 2004|04:51am]
[ mood | bored ]

aghhhhhh Just wrote a whoooollleeee enttry and tis shit got erased!!! damn back button... in a jist... can't sleep... to "awake" gonna just chill... aol time... good morning world.. Happy 1st of october (just about the best month in the year besides june) I dunno why i like october so much.. its like the mellowest month of all... its great

Later all-

P.S. god would this kid stop snoring...

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